I knew ending things wasn’t going to be easy, but no one told me it was going to be this hard. I know I deserve better because of the way you treated me, and I was more sad than happy in the relationship. But I can’t help but miss talking to you everyday and knowing I had someone by my side always. This isn’t fair, I will never understand why I care so much for you when you never showed it to me even though you said you did. I just want to lay in bed next to you and talk like we used to, even though we stopped doing that towards the end. I want things to go back to like they were, but that’s the past and this is now. Things change, and moving on is the hardest thing for me to do. Anyone that really knows me knows that the past haunts me and it’s hard for me to keep my mind away from it. All I want is to be with you, but I can’t make you want to be with me. Even if I’m the one that ended things, your actions never showed you care. So I lie here in bed crying, just thinking of all the memories and wondering where did it all go wrong.
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